Do You Love God MORE?

1385788_627038330673130_699042657_nI will never forget the day I stood before a live audience and shared my previous struggle with homosexuality. As a young girl I grew up in the church but the problem was the church wasn’t in me. Like many, I was a faithful member, I sung in the choir, I was a part of the hospitality committee; my gifts were utilized but I was unaware of what the anointing of God really was and that He had a great plan to use me to help build His Kingdom.


Earlier in life I had labels placed on me from my school system and they placed me on medication which caused me to think I was crazy or “not normal”. I remember trying to fit in only to be rejected by the “popular” crew in my high school. Funny thing now is many that were popular back then are now on baby number 4, with no husband (or wife for that matter) and some I have even seen in our local newspaper for crimes they have committed.


Being lost in this cold world trying to find my way I remember simply wanting to be loved and accepted. Growing up with my father being very inconsistent in my life I was left with a void which should have been filled by him instead I found others who I thought could really give me what I needed.

“Too often we try to fill voids with things and people only to end up still feeling empty for only God can fill the empty space we feel within our hearts.”

Truth is, the voids many of us feel today only God can fill them. We often try to replace it with drugs, things (earthly possessions) and even people but the morning after or even late that night we are still left broken and empty.


I remember thinking as the next man climbed off top of me, God, why do I keep doing this? You see, I know what it feels like to do things and not understand why you do it. I know what it feels like to date men and women and still be left feeling lost, angry, bitter confused and dirty.


But can I tell you the day I accepted Jesus into my heart and soul as my Lord and Personal Savior is the day my life changed forever. Now sure it was no overnight success and I still have to fight the demons of my past and temptations that try to come across my mind. But what keeps me focused and my foot from slipping is that I love God more!


Whatever is pulling and tugging at you is trying to steal your focus away from God and your Kingdom assignment. Sure it may feel good to have someone in your bed and you enjoy sexual pleasures with them. But is it really worth it when you are left feeling empty and ashamed knowing you settled for less than what God has for you?


I want you to know that you can now stand on top of your issue instead of it standing on top of you! There is power in sharing your story and you must understand that your struggle, shortcomings or what others perceive as failures had very little to do with you at all. You were and are simply a vessel the good Lord has decided to use to help spread His light into a dark and broken world. You were perfect for the assignment. God chose you because He knew you had everything you needed to make it through. Why do you think you are still in your right mind? Why do you think you have not given up? It’s because God has you in the very palm of His hand and He refuses to let you go!

What’s the next step? Now you have to be willing to let go of everything that was once familiar to you in order to embrace this new thing; new way of living the Holy Spirit wants to bestow upon. I too had to give up everything in order to receive EVERYTHING! Does that make sense? I found out that my everything wasn’t worthy to be compared to God’s everything. 

What God has to offer you is more than a temporary fix; what He has is the real thing. I’m sure you remember the song that says, Ain’t nothing like the real thing baby!”  That is how I feel when it comes to God. From that day to this I am yet still learning how to deny myself and tell my flesh to shut up and call forth my spirit man to speak loud and clear.

When you grow and develop to the place that you are tired of disappointing God and allowing the devil to beat the crap out of you repeatedly that is when you will stop falling. It is time to make a decision. What is it going to be? Do you love the drugs or God more? Do you love sex or God more? Do you love your earthly possessions (house, cars, money; etc) or do you love God more?


Today is the day to choose who you are going to serve and please don’t feel that you must have it all figured out! This journey called life is a daily process and I want to encourage you that nothing happens over night but the key is to never give up. Fight what you feel to reach what you know to be true and that is that God is a God who reigns in Heaven and Earth!

Join me in declaring “I LOVE GOD MORE!”


The Unexpected Guest: Will You Pass the Test?


It is my prayer that this email finds you in great strength, encouragement and an abundance of joy which will get you through another great week! Sure, I used the word “another” when last week was one interesting and challenging week for me. I was sick for the majority of last week with the chills, then sweats, headaches and more. Then I was faced with a spiritual challenge of a woman who entered into my office claiming to want to invite me to be a part of her event only to try to intimidate and break my spirit (which did NOT happen) and to top it off I was unable to travel to DC to attend Steve Harvey’s Act Like a Success Conference.

But even in the midst of the trials I faced on last week I still identify it as a great week. Here’s why: (1) Because I made it out! Hallelujah! (2) I learned that I am a lot stronger spiritually than I thought I was because although I was highly disrespected in my office I did not allow what the woman attempted to do to enter into my heart. But instead I was filled with the love of God and actually felt very sorry for her to the point that I began to minister to her. That’s right! Her planned attack turned into a ministry moment for her! I ended up with her in my office for over 2 hours and by the end of our meeting I (by the grace of God) had turned her nasty (defensive) attitude and judgmental spirit to one of her saying, “Carla, you are indeed the truth!” LOL I know it sounds comical but initially she flat out told me that she thought I was fake and that all the things I was doing on social media was one big fluff. When she said that I immediately burst out laughing and said, “Are you serious?” She sat there, “straight faced” and said, “Yes.” I then said, “Well darling, I am indeed real about what I do for the Lord so what you see is really what you get!”

I turned that sour moment into one of laughter and I began to find out this was her first event and I began to share wisdom with her concerning things she could do from a professional standpoint. I went as far as  sharing my resources and wisdom with her in which she was very receptive. (But who wouldn’t take free information right? HA!) As she sat in my office all I kept hearing was the scripture that reads, “By loving kindness have I drawn thee”. So obviously this sister had been hurt by women in ministry and was still carrying church hurt in which we dealt with some of it while she was here and I believe her perception of me may have been formed by the thoughts or opinions of others. But guess what? What other people think about you is none of your business!

When she left I flopped in my chair now feeling spiritually drained and said okay Lord that’s why you wouldn’t allow me to come out of prayer this morning when I wanted to. I laughed, got on the phone and shared the experience with my Mom, she praised Jesus that “Cece” (the old me) didn’t show up. We laughed; I hung up then went back to work as if nothing had ever happened.

vintage-exhausted-woman-photo(this is exactly how I felt after she left my office! Spiritually drained because there was some warfare going on in the spirit!)

WHAT’S MY POINT? In the midst of all we face in life it is up to us how we allow things to affect us. We may not be able to control what happens to us but we can control our response to it. We reside in society where everyone is “reacting” versus “responding”. Your reaction is what you do on impulse. But your response is what you do once you have carefully considered all facts and details.

Women and men who are wise know the importance of being slow to speak but quick to listen and slow to judge yet quick to forgive. This is the motto I live by and I admit it is not always easy. Sure, when that woman appeared in my office rude, uptight and with a judgmental spirit (which she admitted to), I instantly had to make a decision whether I was going to allow “Cece” to come out or  remain“Carla” the professional and woman of God who rules, reigns and dominates over the spiritual wickedness that had entered into my office on this particular day.

Which do you think I chose? Absolutely! I chose the latter because one thing I’ve learned in life is we can’t control what people say about us but we can control whether or not we add more fuel to the fire by giving them more to talk about. This is why I decided to go the extra mile with her because how many times has Christ gone the extra mile with us? How many times have we been stubborn or did things that offended God? So although her spirit was off I couldn’t allow her to “infect” me by causing me to act out of character.


Ok, I promise you this is not what this blog was supposed to be about lol I was coming to talk with you about the secret to success which I read in an article about Dr. Phil and how Oprah started out as his lawyer, and she then invited him on her show and he became well known across the world instantly due to that one platform. I guess I had to get some things out first (smile). How about I save that story for tomorrow! Join my email list by going to and you will receive the story directly to your email on tomorrow!

I like to share my experiences with those who are in my “tribe” (as Motivational Speaker, Lisa Nichols puts it) to expose you to my world and how I choose to handle things. Now, don’t be alarmed I had already warned the lady that I was going to write and talk about this experience because too many women “size up” other women and in doing so they miss out on great personal and/or professional relationships because upon meeting they entered in the wrong spirit and attitude. She laughed when I told her, but I assured her I was “dead serious”. HA!

So, what can you take away from this story:

– Begin each day in prayer, meditation & studying the Word of God

– Never allow someone else’s issue to become your issue.

– Do not take personal attacks personally.

– The love of God conquers all

– You were created to rule, reign and DOMINATE!

– Do not allow evil spirits to intimidate you

– The Word of God and even the love of God is your weapon

– Never react to situations but respond to them

As you go about your week know that you are indeed a force to be reckoned with! I believe the Holy Spirit wanted me to share this story with you to help strengthen you as well and to bring you into higher accountability. As Christians it is truly time for us to walk the talk and do so rather quietly. How we do what we do should speak the highest volumes without us ever having to open our mouth!

Be blessed, remain encouraged and allow no one to tell you who you are for that has already been established in Christ!

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Carla R. Cannon “The Trailblazer”
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